Venting Now!

The 22nd of July 2005. It's almost been a year since all this nonsense within the XCN kicked off and after months and months of trying nothing has been resolved. It's absurd that I can't even talk openly about it all on my own blog because I'm afraid of getting personal abuse and threats of legal action again.

Ok, so the threats have never been followed through and that's no surprise but regardless, the trouble I had last year was very distressing and to this day it still distresses me. Is it so bad that I was just trying to do what I thought was right?

Ashley's wise words to me at the time were: "Ignore it, he's just a cock. Whenever I run into people like that with my business I just ignore them and they go away." It's good solid advice, advice that I took and in a sense the direct problems for me have stopped.

But the XCN is divided. The lines are drawn; the soldiers and politicians are making their moves and I'm sitting here thinking: "How the fuck did it come to this?"

I've always wanted unity within the XCN because we're all not going to achieve what we want on our own. Sure a couple of us have had a good go at it, but we'll all plateau out eventually and progress no further.

I want to see the XCN working together, but while there are people within it who I believe have other motives for being there then I'm not prepared to put BXB's full support behind it. I cannot see a way forward for the XCN if the people that perpetrated the lies and abuse of myself; BXB and many other people and websites are included.