Reality TV

It's been one of those days today. A mix of both good and bad events that really just means I have more than a bit to talk about in relation to BXB. It seemed recent problems with the Xbox Community Network management were coming to a head since myself and Ade returned to talking terms and realised that we share common frustrations and disappointments.

The morning started the day positively with me having a lengthy chat with Crissie at the XCN as I've already stated and the issues discussed and the problems raised are very much work in progress and I'll update you all later.

The day moved onto a row which was brewing on Gamespress.com. Armed with a little confidence thanks to the chat with Crissie and my shared feelings with Ade, I took the opportunity to challenge one or two people that I believe aren't really pulling their weight in the XCN.

Of course, these people are slimey, spineless types who are afraid of direct confrontation or discussion and would rather flatter and deceive people around them to do their bidding. No doubt, the Gamespress management received complaints from the usual suspects about my blunt, frank but honest questioning.

I'm now serving a temporary ban which was bestowed upon my by the Gamespress management. It's only a few days, and to be honest, I appreciate what action they took because sometimes my heart leads me to into stormy waters which in hindsight would have been better to avoid.

I'm not repentant for what I've said or done today, I believe I have done the right thing and that I haven't compromise the seemingly strict set or morals I live my life by but to a lot of people in this industry my "heart on sleeve" approach to things is simply too intimidating.

Of course, I have apologised for causing the Gamespress management problems as that was not my intention, but I'm not apologising to any of the people I made comments about in that thread, because they are nothing but the truth.

Conflict is in human's very nature. Sitting watching Big Brother tonight I realised that what I've spent my time doing today is pretty much what the housemates spent doing yesterday. Arguing, bickering and bitching. These are parts of life, to try and silence that is as futile as trying to make Shebaz see any sense.

Thanks to everyone who supported me today.